Hummingbirds gifts include the ability to heal by using light as a laser from mouth, endurance over long journeys, ability to fly into small places to heal, joy, happiness, love, timelessness, and the ability to do the impossible.
I understand why people want to give up when they are going through a long health crisis. I can even understand why someone in this circumstance would commit suicide, though I haven’t thought of it myself.
I felt like giving up many times. There were also times when I wished I wasn’t here.
I understand going from living a life where you were healthy and didn’t have to worry about money to having health and money the thing always on your mind.
I went from healthy and having money. I could travel and buy things when I needed them. I could donate money to friends in need and causes that I supported. And then I experienced a life-threatening illness and lose all the money I had.
I understand the fear, the pain, the frustration and anger at a situation that seems like it will never end.
I understand the fear of going to sleep not knowing if you will wake up again.
I understand going through this alone because you don’t have a partner.
I understand the embarrassment of not being able to take care of your basic needs. I understand being behind on your mortgage fearing you would lose your home.
I understand not being able to buy healthy food and supplements and treatment that will help you get well again because you have no money.
I understand waiting in line at the food shelf and being grateful to have food for a week even if it isn’t the healthiest food available.
I understand people judging you. I understand being misunderstood. I understand losing friends in the process.
I understand the frustration you feel when people have no idea what you are going through.
I understand fatigue, no energy, no motivation.
I understand being sick and having no money. I understand having a negative bank balance and no food.
I understand how alone you feel.
I understand why people want to give up. I understand why people want to die.
I also understand resilience. ❤️
I understand seeing a ray of hope and having that as the object of your focus. I understand it often shifts your thinking.
I understand what happens when you overcome your fear and embarrassment and ask for help. People want to help you. I understand how it feels to ask for money and what happens when you allow people to help you.
I understand diving deep into yourself to find what your illness is trying to tell you and how there is always a solution that will help you heal.
I understand how uplifting it is to have friends come to visit, make your meals, take you to dinner, give you money when you need it.
I understand believing in yourself and trusting the process even when it is difficult to do that. I have experienced miracles when I have let go.
i understand we have something higher than ourselves that is watching over us and has our back.
I understand we have Guides and angels ready to step in and help if we ask.
I understand accepting illness rather than fight it and how acceptance allows us to heal.
I understand everything about having a life-threatening illness and being in a financial crisis at the same time because I have experienced them both. I understand how hard it is. I am here to tell you,
Don’t give up ❤️
You are not alone 💜
Don’t be afraid to ask for help, or feel embarrassed if you have to. 🧡
You will get through this. 💚
You are resilient. 💙
You are loved. ❤️